Yesterday

Yesterday was a day of sorrow. Let me first say I know a cat is just a cat but when you have known her for 14+ years and have occasionally lived with her it is hard to realize that one day you won't. She is at the vets currently on an extended stay. And I am afraid may not go home. Terrible sight to walk in the room and see her locked in a cage with an IV in her leg. Just heart breaking. Yesterday a friend of my fathers past away. About a month ago he was at the gym in a spa alone and had a heart attack. He was under water for about five minutes and he never woke up. I met him just before Christmas and it is terrible to say but I did not like him. My first impression of him and I did not like him. Then this happens and I felt terrible for feeling that way. My sister called me back yesterday and I asked her how she was and usually when you talk to a person on the phone and you ask them or they ask you it is a standard answer. But not this time. They were both pink slipped yesterday. Then I had to go and ask if you had stayed at your other district do you think you still would have been fired? She thinks she would have been borderline but possibly been spared. It looked like a great opportunity to switch schools but it turned out to be the worst choice for her. So what do you do? If everyone is cutting back I think you have to start thinking of another profession. What is in store for me in the future? If everything and one is going to hell around me what does that mean for me? Means I should stop being selfish and buck up and live with what I have and not hope for better. I have better already. Not everyone does. But writing those things and admitting those things is different than living those things. I can tell myself I am lucky to have this job but really I hate it and don't care if I lost it. Till next time.

Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.
Cicero (106 BC - 43 BC), 'Pro Plancio,' 54 B.C.