Final verdict.

Been busy lately. Nothing new. Everything the same. How can you make things change? The personal relationships we have with friends and family are they always going to be same? Can they ever change? Are you always going to fight with the same people, butt heads with them? Nothing seems to change with the relationship I have with my father. We never have a joint effort come out without having fought over something during it. I don't really understand why. Is it because I cannot stand that he stands over my shoulder while I do the work and tells me what I am doing wrong? Is it that he asks my opinion just to tell me no he knows better? Probably. Is it because maybe even though I do not want to believe this but we are more a like than different and just cannot not argue? It must be. It has always been like this. He calls me his "buddy". When I was a lazy unemployed slacker I was guilted into helping with projects. I felt that since all I did do all day was sit around watching TV they paid for in the house they paid for eating the food they paid for sitting on the couch they paid for, and so on, that the only way to pay them back was to help out and provide my services free of charge. My mother seems to always get out of helping so it is just me and him. But I dread projects. There is constant fighting and he either storms off or I do. And if it is me he comes to "apologize" to get me back helping. The apology is forced and never what I want. I do not want to help to begin with but even though I am employed now I am still a lazy slacker. I like to watch more than do. Till next time.