So today would be one of those days you wished you lived alone. Or at least away from your parents. 1. Parent A is in a foul mood because of god knows what so anything you say to Parent A is taken incorrectly and you are harassed for it. 2. Parent B has taken offense to Parent A and is now most likely feeling belittled due to Parent A's need to talk down to you when they are in a bad mood and want to feel superior. Which the want of feeling superior supercedes whatever mood Parent A is in. 3. The devil has struck again. The "devil", who will remain nameless, does not take to authority all that well. And I do admit it is my fault. I created this devil and wish I could undo it. I could but it will take more time and effort than I want to give it. I make excuses all the time why the "devil" is the devil. Bottom line. I need to wake up and smell the burning flesh. Because little by little I am burning away and soon there will be nothing left. Hopefully that day never comes. I am afraid to think of the consequences of my actions if that day comes because I and I alone are only to blame. Till tomorrow where the buck stops here.

So... Buying a house. To do or not to do. To do 1. Get to move out. After 25 years I think I deserve some real alone time. 2. What a great start to getting on with my life. Would this propel me into getting a new job or would it hold me back since I would then have the responsibility of a monthly mortgage? That would suck since my new current dream is telling them to go frick themselves and walk out. What a dream. Seriously have had that dream a few times. 3. I am young and starting now would be the best idea. I can move up in a few years and hopefully after 10, 15 years I would be in the place of my dreams. And designing kind of makes me happy. I have ideas but since I am regulated into one room plus bathroom there really is not a lot of room to spread my style. Food for thought. Pool or no pool?

First time for everything. Here goes. Asking me to get directions to an onsite meeting is getting on my nerves. I mean what did you do before I was there? Because you certainly did not use the computer yourself. Talking politics... I cannot stand it at all. I am positive 100% that we agree on nothing the same. Other than we would have to agree to disagree. I say on the phone, "No we are not hiring.", hang up and he asks, "Who was that?" Hello!!?!?!?!? Who do you think it was? The continual clearing of the throat/humming/moaning/grunting, (only way to explain it without hearing it live), cannot fricking stand it! I know it is all little stuff but isn't the most important stuff the "little" stuff? Life seems to be a continual bag of shit. Sometimes you get clean and stay clean and others... well it stays shitty. Shitty is my current description of life. Till the next time. Stay clean in the mean time.