Office Manners

Two times in my life I have told people I no longer wish to be their friend. Neither time was I proud of myself. I just felt the words needed to be said. But after I definitely regretted it. Not that I did not mean it the second time but was it really necessary that I say it out load? The third time instead of telling the person I just ignored them. Which also did not make me proud of myself. But definitely was necessary for me self preservation. Now the fourth time I do not know how to go about it. Since I work for thesepeople it is a bit tricky. First I guess I would have to quit. Step 1. Wait make that Step 2. Find another job Step 1. And the rest would take care of itself. Step 3. But do I feel good about myself? Boss "B" asked me today why I was in a good mood when talking to Boss "A" and not with him. My answer she talks to me and you talk at me. Harsh words. He tells me thank you for telling me that. I will fix that. But I feel bad for saying it even though it is the truth. He talks with his back to you as he is walking away. He does not require answers more developed than agreeable sounds with his conclusions. I knew he knew how I felt but with him confirming it I feel disappointment I could not hide my true feelings. It is not necessary for him to know. He his the boss, I am the employee. End of the story. I do as I am told whether I like it or not. I need to learn to separate what I am feeling with what I am speaking. Filter out the annoyance and hatred. And inject light airy tones to my replies, suggestions, answers and questions. Will that make me a better person to be able to ignore what I feel to save the feelings of others? Or will it make me more repressed and fear the volcano that will eventually erupt at the most inopportune moment? Till next time...